Pssst....yes you

 I know, I know. I have been scarce for the last 2 months. I'm sorry. Things have been chaotic around here and it doesn't look like it will be any less chaotic for a good bit. So much has happened that I plan to tell you guys about, just not at the moment. It would and most likely will, encompass a rather long blog post to cover all that has happened in the last 8-9 weeks. It has been...interesting to say the least. H, L and D have 5 days of school left. C, S and CK are home - schooled so we plan to take a short break so that they can relax some. Dk started his Forensic classes as well as his Psych classes. Chy has started her Creative Photography classes now and that has added to her Marine Biology and English classes. Chenoa has started a few classes online with FLVS as well. Seriously, really...things are just way too chaotic around here. There is so much to tell you and definitely not enough time to tell you about it all. Just when I think we are making some progress in the chaos, things start to go all wild. I seriously need a vacation after all this is over with. That's for sure. Since I don't have much time in which to post this and I have forgotten how to put up a new blog post via my android, I will go ahead and close this for now. Sorry it isn't much of an update. Until next time my little Mad Hatters.

Insanity much? No. Much too much.

The title says it all. Things are still totally insane here and I am losing hope of ever recovering what little of my insanity I had left, again. All I can say right now is: I need a vacation.

World English Dictionary

arachnophobia  (əˌræknəˈfəʊbɪə)
— n
	an abnormal fear of spiders
[C20: from Greek arakhnē  spider + -phobia ]
arachnophobic
— adj , — n Yes I have SEVERE arachnophobia. Severe. I tend to become a reduced puddle of hysterical tears when I see a spider. Especially very large ones. This morning was no exception to that. I was sitting in my bedroom checking emails on my laptop when my daughter Cheyenne screamed "OMG HUGE SPIDER! HUGE SPIDER!" You see, she has arachnophobia like I do. However, she tends to exaggerate on the size of spiders when she sees them. So I thought oh its probably just a small one. I got up to go see just how big the spider was. I didn't get very far. When I got to my bedroom door my son Dakota said "Don't move mom." I happened to look up at that moment and saw the biggest wolf spider I have EVER seen. Seriously. Really. I think it was on steroids. No really. It was...HUGE. Even with my fear of spiders and other arachnids, I have seen tarantulas that were smaller. Does that give you a good visual in your mind how big this thing was? Seriously. Tarantulas are big spiders. But this one...He had them beat in terms of size. Daniel and Dakota got to see just how bad my arachnophobia REALLY is. I started backing up, screaming, crying. I tripped and fell backwards over the edge of the bed. After landing on the floor I scooted backwards and screamed "Kill the damn spider. Kill it damn it."Daniel looked at me with this look that was pure shock at seeing his wife reduced to hysterical tears, shaking uncontrollably and unable to do much other than huddle into a ball. He knocked one of the legs off and the spider scurried off somewhere. It is now somewhere in my bedroom. Plotting my death. Seriously, I think it's plotting my death. I am not one to advocate violence but...I am terrified of spiders. Especially BIG ones. It triggered an SVT attack and a panic attack on top of that. Daniel was laughing his ass off but yet he felt totally horrible at the same time. He hugged me and said it will be okay baby. I looked at him like he was crazy and said "No it won't be okay. That spider is in my bedroom somewhere. Now go find it!". He laughed hysterically when I called my mama and said "I need to hear my mommy's voice."  My mama immediately said "OMG What happened?" When I told her she said "oh crap!" She remembers all too well how terrified of spiders I am.  Daniel says I was holding Carsten (my puppy that is white mind you) so tight that his fur was turning blue. So I guess I can call him smurf puppy now? So that was my morning. How was yours?